Hepaestion @aol.com
May 1999
http: //slashcity.com/Hepaestion
Disclaimer: Characters belong to CC and 1013 Productions
Rating: NC-17
Keywords: MSR, M/K slash, and angst 
Author's note: this story was inspired by the Sarah McLachlan song 'I will
Remember you', music and lyrics by S. McLachlan, Seamus Egan, Dave Merenda
Warnings:  none
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I Will Remember You

June 10, 2001

The entire house was bustling with people and beautiful floral arrangements.. 
The doorways and tables were decorated in white bows that held more pink and
yellow roses.  

Mulder watched Scully from the corner of his eye as he listened to Frohike tell
another marriage joke.  Mulder was a bit overwhelmed and not sure if the reality
of the day hit him yet.  It was his wedding day.  

'Mulder, I have to admit. You marrying Dana Scully came as a bit of a surprise. 
I really thought you were going to stay a bachelor forever.  I mean I knew you
two were friends but I never thought there was anything more to it.  You had us
fooled.' Frohike said, as he sipped his champagne.  

Byers and Langley nodded in agreement with their pal.  The entire wedding and
marriage was quite the shock to them. 

Mulder kept watching Scully, who was dressed in a simple but elegant Vera Wang
wedding dress.  Around her neck, was her mother's pearl necklace that she had
worn when she married Scully's dad.  Mrs. Scully wept during the ceremony
because she knew her husband should have been there.  Instead, Walter Skinner
walked her down the aisle, busting with pride as if he were the bride's own
father.  

'So tonight is the wedding night Mulder!' Frohike winked at Mulder.  The other
two men giggled into their drinks.  

'Don't start boys, keep your mind out of my wedding bed if you don't mind.'
Mulder said and gulped down his cocktail.  

Mulder's eyes strayed at a mirror hanging on the wall of Mrs. Scully's 
residence where the wedding reception was being held.  He saw himself in the
mirror, he wore a black tuxedo, and his hair was a bit longer again.  Mulder
looked at his hands, immediately noticing the wedding band.  He twisted it round
and round, deep in thought at everything that happened in the past year.
********************

Last year: 2000 

Mulder had received a mysterious package, and inside it a few CD disks
containing information about the Consortium's deal with the Aliens.  Not only
were there addresses and blueprints to human testing sites but information on
the few remaining members and where they lived.  Also, proof of their crimes and
various nefarious dealings in the works.  

Diana Fowley proved to be a mole sent by the Smoker to warp any of Mulder's
leads and eventually her dead body was found in her apartment.  Mulder took the
death hard, for he felt his ex-wife was someone he could have trusted.. 
However, the hardest bit of information was discovering that Samantha, his
sister, was dead.  She had gotten ill and died in the hands of the Aliens.  It
seems that the Smoker had thought she was his daughter and therefore, in his
grief, created clones of her.  He cloned her repeatedly, so that he could keep
part of her alive.  To Mulder, the woman he met after Scully was cured, was as
close to his sister as he would ever get.  

Slowly, the mysteries of the Consortium were being unraveled.  He and Scully
were coming down hard on the men that for years were untouchable.  Mulder had
pushed his quest for the truth aside, and for once paid heed to the message that
Alex Krycek had told him once.  There was no truth, just resist or serve.  

It was Alex Krycek, who like an angel who lost a wing after falling so hard down
upon the earth, came to his rescue.  With wicked green eyes, one arm man with
the face of an angel, Alex Krycek pulled Mulder out death's door and onto the
right path.  With Krycek's help, Mulder was able to get to the Rebel Aliens and
discuss fighting the colonization.  So as the world watched Star Wars: Phantom
Menace, a galactic war was being played out in their backyard.  

Armed with a vaccine and the Rebel force, they were able to rid the threat of
colonization.  The Aliens realized the earth was not worth fighting over in a
galaxy filled of other worlds.  However, they did not promise others would not
visit.  Humans were much too interesting for anyone to just pass by.  

It wasn't long when on a dark night; Alex appeared for the last time. In his,
hand the cure for Scully's cancer, enabling her to rid her body of the chip
forever.  In a box, he carried the frozen eggs that belong to Scully, giving her
the hope of bearing children one day.  

Mulder didn't hit Alex that night; there was no violence in the relationship
since they began to work together.  

'You were right, that night when you came into my apartment. I was such a
fucking idiot. ' Mulder said to Alex.

'Mulder, you were so confused.  You had suffered so much already.  I was only
trying to bring you back to the real issue at hand.  The Truth is such a strange
thing Mulder, sometimes, living a lie is easier.' Alex said, his voice sounded
tired.

'Why did you kiss me that night?' Mulder asked.  

Alex looked up surprised at the question.  He stared into Mulder's golden green
eyes; the light of the fish tank made him glow.  

'We hit each other so much sometimes.  I wanted to just once...show you how I
really felt.   I never meant to hurt you.' Alex said softly.  

'You were behind that disk I got with the information. You saved my life and now
you're saving Scully's.  Krycek, why do I feel so confused about you.' Mulder
said, the frustration could be heard in his voice.

Alex Krycek walked up close to Mulder, with his real hand; he lifted the agent's
face up.  'Mulder, it isn't me you are confused about, it is about yourself. 
You know what you want but you are so frightened.  So much damage your family
did to you, so much fear of personal truths.' 

Mulder pushed Krycek away from him, 'you got some fucking nerve trying to
psychoanalyze me.  How dare you? I know what I want and what I am doing.  I know
who I am and I know who you are.  You are a liar and murderer.  You might have
helped now, but you caused many of the problems yourself.  Fuck you! Hear me!
Fuck YOU! Just get out of my life already, I don't need you or your help! I
don't need you. I have Scully! She understands me and loves me! That's why I
decided to...' 

'To what?' Krycek asked.

'I am going to ask her to marry me.' Mulder said.

'Marry? Mulder don't you see, you are not that person.  Why are you trying to be
someone other than who you are! You? Married? Wife? Kids? Sure the Aliens are
gone for now, but you never know.  There is more out there, and this earth isn't
100 percent alien free safe.  Are you gonna just settle down and build a swing
set?' Krycek said, he was flabbergasted by the news.

'Get out of my life dammit! It's over.  The Smoker is dead, Diana is dead,
Samantha is dead, my father is dead, Deep throat is dead, Spender is dead,
Pendrell is dead, the X-Files are dead.  Spooky Mulder is dead.' Mulder said. 
He could kick himself for the tears that flooded his face.  

Unexpectedly, Mulder watched a tear escape Alex's eye.  'Spooky will never die. 
I will never forget you Mulder, and one day I might be back.  It isn't over
until the fat lady sings, Fox.' Alex placed his hand on Mulder's cheek and
leaned over, this time instead of his cheek, the tender lips were on his mouth. 
Mulder was frozen, and he felt the warm lips kissing him tenderly.  However,
they were gone before he could complain.  Mulder's eyes were shut, and he only
opened them when he heard the front door close.  Alex Krycek was gone.  
********************************
'Hey, earth to Mulder.' Scully said.

'Hey Sc..Dana, sorry I was spacing out a bit.' Mulder said.  He smiled at his
new wife.  He wanted to remember to use her first name.  

'You seem a bit tired.  It has been a long day I suppose.  I know I can't wait
until...' Dana bit her lip. She blushed and smiled at Mulder.  

He put his arm around her, and kissed the top of her head.  He looked out the
window and for a brief moment held his breath, he thought he saw a man.  A man
that looks like Alex Krycek outside the house.

'Dana, I need to go outside, I think I see an old FBI friend here.' Mulder said
and whisked away before Scully could answer him.  

Dana looked at Mulder rushing off, and she couldn't help but frown.  She thought
to herself, 'that with Mulder not working with the X-Files anymore and now
married, he would definitely change a bit.  She will be there to help him live
this new life.  That is why she loved him, he was her best
friend....uh..husband.'

Mulder rushed outside and looked around the area, trying to find the man he saw. 
He walked around, avoiding people who kept trying to congratulate him for his
marriage.  He eventually stopped looking.  He couldn't find anyone, but in the
distance saw something on the ground.  

Mulder walked over and picked up the paper.  It said, ' April 9th, 2001 at 8:00
am, meet me at the Plaza Hotel in NYC, room 1013.' 

'Of all the fucking nerve, that bastard.' He crumpled the note and shoved it
inside his pocket, but knew it was imprinted in his eidetic memory forever.
*****************************
April 8th, 2001

Mulder paced back in forth in his office in the house where he and Scully lived. 
He knew what tomorrow was, and couldn't help but think about it.  

He had found the note the day of his wedding reception.  

It was a year later, the day before the meeting and Mulder couldn't get Alex
Krycek out of his head the entire year.  He was never able to forget the man,
sometimes waking up beside Scully after dreaming of Alex.  

She would wake up, her red hair tousled from sleep but beautiful nevertheless. 
Lovingly she would hug Mulder tightly, thinking he had suffered some kind of
nightmare.  Many times, Mulder needed to get out of bed and splash cold water on
his face.  The dreams were full of pain, angst, and sex.  

At first, Mulder thought marrying Scully was what he needed to change. He wanted
to be liked; he wanted to be normal.  Scully was strong and smart; she was his
rock and knew him so well.  Nevertheless, Mulder began to feel as if instead of
having a wife, he had married his sister.  

The wedding night was full of passion, Mulder felt his cock inside Scully's
tight body was like committing some taboo.  That feeling made their sex life
incredible in the beginning weeks of marriage, and he enjoyed it immensely. 
However, by the time they were married for 6 months, that excitement died down
and sex was something he began to avoid.  

It wasn't he didn't love her. He did.  He wanted to care for her and be near her
all the time.  However, something was missing.  He had the same feelings of
emptiness he had with the other women in his life.  Mulder thought marrying
Scully would be different but it wasn't.  

Scully noticed Mulder's sudden unease and tried to get him to go to her church's
family counseling. Mulder rebelled and it was their worst fight ever.  Scully
ended up slamming the door to her bedroom and Mulder flinging a lamp against a
wall.  

Scully had embraced her religion even stronger after being what she called'
working against so much evil' for so long.  She tried to explain to Mulder that
he would benefit from the internal peace and spiritual nourishment God could
give him.  

Mulder began to notice the woman he married more than ever.  Mulder began to pay
attention to the different parts that made Scully who she was, and how different
they were to him.  However, he ended up blaming his own messed up head, knowing
Scully was probably right after all.  

One night they went to the movies.  They been married for over 9 months and they
no longer held hands and Mulder had begun calling her Scully again.  Their
lovemaking was less frequent than ever. 

The movie was a small independent film, and not what Mulder had expected.  
Mulder sat riveted as the man in the large screen struggled with his sexuality. 
He sat stunned when the man finally let go and allowed the man he wanted to take
him.  The movie was real, the sex between the men was graphic although not
pornographic.  The dialogue was simple and it dealt with a simple reality that
occurs in the life of many.  Mulder watched the two men making love and felt his
cock get hard.  He couldn't help but imagine Alex Krycek as the man lying on his
stomach, biting the pillow as his lover penetrated him.  

Mulder could feel Scully touch his hand and he bit his lip.  He looked at her;
she mouthed that she wanted to leave the movie.

They were outside walking to the car when Mulder finally spoke, ' Scully, why
did we leave? That movie won at the Cannes film festival this year.' Mulder
couldn't keep the angry tone out of his words.

'My name is Dana, remember.  WE don't work together anymore and Mulder that
movie was disgusting.  I mean, there was no reason for all that graphic
sexuality, I have no problem with two men loving each other or two women, but do
we need to see it?  The media loves to make movies and pretend it's not
pornography. That was as disgusting as your old porn movie habit.  There is no
entertainment reason for us to see the men engaging in sex, for god's sake. 
Don't you think it was indecent?' Scully said, climbing in the car and buckling
up.

Mulder got in and buckled up, he turned at Scully and said, ' I think it was an
important part of the story.  It was showing us finally the man's stride to be
who he really is in life.  Going after what he really wanted instead of living a
lie.' 

'Mulder, why doesn't anyone feel sorry for the wife? The man was married,
couldn't he choose to be gay before he was married and made the solemn vows to
her?' Scully said.

'You really think it's a choice Scully? I mean as a psychologist, we studied
homosexuality and well, we know it's not a mental illness.  However, I don't
think people can choose their sexuality. ' Mulder said, he looked
straightforward while he drove.  He was suddenly afraid of his wife.

'Mulder, how can a man, who is almost 40 not realize he is gay? Come on gimme a
break will ya honey.  I am sorry, I shouldn't have made you leave the movie like
that.  Next week, you pick the movie, anyone.  Ok?' Scully said softly and
grabbed her husband's hand.  

'Ok Scully, ok.' Mulder said, and very gently took his hand back, placing them
both on the steering wheel. 

It was that night, when they were in bed making love that Mulder closed his eyes
and imagined he was making love to another man instead.  

A week later, Mulder lied to Scully for the first time.  He told her he was
going to go get some research on the book he been trying to write since he quit
the X-Files.  He was a free-lance writer and well known around the psychology
world.  He gave lectures around the country but quit doing Jerry Springer.

Mulder instead walked into an adult book store theater that he used to visit
when he was single.  He hadn't purchased or watched porn since he was engaged to
Scully.  Once they were married, he had watched her put his porn in a box marked
for the garbage Dumpster.  

The man at the counter smiled at Mulder, recognizing him immediately.

'Where you been dude?' the guy said.

'I got married.' Mulder said.

'Bummer man, we got tons of new stuff' the guy said, and bit into his tuna
sandwich.

Mulder got near the man, he lowered his voice a bit, 'do you have a gay section,
uh...I have a friend who is gay and it's his birthday.' 

The guy smiled, 'I myself am bisexual. Listen man, it's cool.  However, don't do
the friend lie; it's an easy give in. You going to tell your wife?' 

Mulder looked at the man, he let out a big sigh, ' I don't know what I am yet,
but thanks.  I have no idea what I am going to do, but I have a curiosity I need
to fill.' 

'Head towards the back, where the booths are, on your left. We got a huge
selection, pick one, and it's yours on the house.  Least I can do to help. You
were once a good straight porn customer.' The clerk said and returned to eating
his sandwich.

Mulder walked over and found himself shocked to find the endless rows of gay
pornography.  Every fetish, every type of man, and every type of sexual
situation that men could find themselves in were displayed.  

Mulder found himself buying a simple movie, the men in it were handsome, the
plot somewhat interesting and the sex extremely hot.  Mulder hid the movie from
his wife and watched only when she was away at the store or Sunday mornings when
she went to church.  Mulder found himself back to his masturbating habit he
thought he had given up for marriage.  

Eventually, one day the trip to the porn store ended up in more than a purchase. 
Mulder found himself standing next to a man, who kept smiling and checking him
out.  Mulder's first impression was to flee.  He was so frightened.  However,
the man eventually turned to face Mulder and smiling said. 'Hi, I am Billy.' 

'Hi, I am married.' Mulder spit out and said the unthinkable before being able
to stop.

'Yeah, I know you are wearing a wedding band.' Billy said.

'What?' Mulder looked at his hand and noticed the band on his finger.  Maybe
that was why no man ever approached him all these weeks.

'It's ok, I was in that situation too myself at first.  Any children?' Billy
asked.

'NO! I mean, not yet. She wants to have a kid, I guess I been avoiding the
topic.' Mulder said.

'Well, I have two twin girls.  When there are children involved, things can get
weird.  I was lucky; my wife was cool about it.  I see my girls every summer.'
Billy said.

Mulder listened to the man; he was so dazed now.

Billy got closer to Mulder; he gently placed a hand on his arm.  'It's ok, don't
be so nervous.  You haven't been with a man I suppose?' 

'No.' 

'You are gorgeous, you know.' Billy said, his hand gently went from Mulder's arm
to Mulder's hand.  He held it gently.

Mulder felt the man's touch and his entire body was suddenly on fire.  

'Would like to go to my place? I live nearby with my sister, but she is out..'
Billy said.  

'I don't think I am ready for all this yet.' Mulder said softly.  

'We won't do anything too strange, trust me.' Billy said.

Mulder heard the words 'trust me'. He looked at Billy, ' Ok'.

Mulder followed Billy to his apartment where he and his sister lived.  It was
modest but very homey.  It wasn't long before Billy held Mulder in his arms
gently kissing him.  The older man felt his knees get weak and he buckled. 
Billy chuckled softly, 'easy man. What is your name by the way"? 

'Fox.' 

'Really? Interesting name Fox.' Billy said and began to kiss Mulder again.  

Mulder closed his eyes and kissed back.  

Mulder arrived home a few hours later.  In his hand was a bag from a well-known
bookstore, full of books.  He kissed Scully on the forehead and quickly told her
about the books he got for his research.  He gave her a few more tidbits of
information about all the work he was getting done and then excused himself for
the shower.

Mulder scrubbed his body nearly raw in the hot water.  He was sure Scully would
be able to read his face and body for signs of his adulterous love making from
just a few hours before.  What insanity did he commit? Why did he cheat on the
most wonderful woman in the world? On the one person who has loved him
unconditionally for so long? On the woman who was at his side when no one was.  

That night Mulder approached Scully as she brushed her hair.  He kissed her neck
and eventually her mouth.  He was rough and possessive of her lips.  His hands
grabbing at her breasts and his fingers twisting and squeezing the small hard
nipples.  He heard her moan and say his name.  He ripped the nightgown off her
body.  That night Mulder took Scully's body with self-determination, each thrust
of his cock he hoped would remind him of its proper place.  That night Mulder
made love to his wife hoping he could forget.  

Mulder never went back to the video store and never touched another man after
that day.  

Today was April 8th, 2001 and the day before his meeting with Alex Krycek.  Like
a nervous cat, he paced up and down his office floor.  He wasn't going to go. 
He didn't need to go to Alex Krycek.  That part of his life is over.  Soon he
and Scully were going to be parents.  Mulder gave in to Scully's decision to go
ahead with the fertilization process.  They were going to fertilize one of
Scully's eggs with his sperm and then place it inside Scully's womb.  There was
a very good posiblity the process will be a success and in 9 months they would
be parents.  

Mulder knew Scully wanted a family of her own.  However, he just didn't seem to
be able to like the entire idea.  Recently the Lone Gunmen came over to dinner
and they were full of stories.  There has been some strange events happening all
over the World again.  People have begun to contact the authorities about seeing
what they called 'UFOs'.   

Mulder listened to the Gunmen and realized how much he missed them.  He was full
of questions and promised to go over to the hideout next week.  

The only comment Scully made was to remind the Gunmen that the Aliens were gone
and Mulder wasn't in charge of X-Files anymore.  She proceeded to inform them of
their plans to start a family.  Mulder couldn't help but give Byers a weak smile
when he raised his eyebrow at the news.  He was the only one who somehow could
tell he wasn't so happy.  

Mulder eventually went upstairs to their bedroom. Scully was in bed reading a
medical journal.  She was a doctor at a clinic nearby that dealt with unwed
mothers.  It was a Catholic Church funded operation and her priest begged her to
take the job.  She enjoyed the job and even Mulder knew the clinic offered great
services.  Mulder moved into Scully's apartment after they married, and the
clinic was only a few blocks away.  However, she mentioned recently that they
should get a house.  

Mulder watched his wife reading and eventually entered the bedroom.  

'Hi, coming to bed?' she asked.

'Yeah I have a long day tomorrow.' Mulder said.

'Oh? What's up?' Scully asked.

' I am going to spend the day with the Gunmen.  I want to check out some of that
information they have.  Plus, they promised me some huevos rancheros for
breakfast.' Mulder said, his voice in its normal, flat tone.  

'Would you like me to tag along? I can skip work.' Scully said.

'Nah, just us silly boys tomorrow. NO girlies allowed.' Mulder said teasingly
and kissed his wife.  

Scully deepened the kiss but when it became more intense, Mulder pulled her arms
off from around his neck.  'Sorry Dana, I am so tired. I need to get some rest
tonight.  I promised the boys I would be on time for the breakfast.'

Scully gave him a last kiss and picked up her book.  She watched her husband
from the corner of her eye until he was lying beside her and fast asleep.  
********************************
April 9th, 2001: 

Mulder had woken up before Scully the next morning.  He was out the door by 6am. 
He wanted to get to New York on time for his meeting.  

He arrived at the Plaza Hotel; there was an endless line of limos and taxis'
outside.  He walked inside nonchalantly and only once looked himself over in one
of their mirrors.  He took the elevator until he arrived at his floor and
followed the arrows to room 1013.

He stood in front of the door.  Mulder felt his heart pounding like he hadn't
felt before.  His palms were getting sweaty and his balls felt heavy.  

Mulder knocked on the door twice.   A male voice asked him to enter.

Mulder opened the door to the suite and immediately saw the man sitting on the
chair.  Alex Krycek.

Krycek sat in the chair with one leg over the other. He wore jeans, T-shirt, doc
marten boots and leather jacket.  His hair was short but stylish and a small
gold earring in his left ear.  His hands were folded on his knee and Mulder
noticed both real hands.  The man was back to being a perfect, beautiful
creature.  No longer the stupid, gel covered head geek.  Alex gave out a strong
animalistic sensuality and Mulder felt his cock get hard.  

'Your arm?' Mulder asked.

'Brand new, took me a year but it is finally working 100 percent' Alex said..  

'Why am I here Krycek?' Mulder asked.  

Alex Krycek stood up and walked up to Mulder.  He was within the man's personal
space and only inches away from his face.  

'You are here because you want me like I want you. You are here because I was
right and your miserable with Scully although you love her.  You are here
because you love me and I love you. ' Alex said, he looked into Mulder's eyes.

'It can't be, no.' Mulder said, he felt his world collapsing around him.

'Mulder look at me, tell me you don't want me.  Tell me that you hate me and
that you want nothing to do with me and I will leave and never come back again.
Just tell me and you will be rid of me forever.' Alex said, he felt his heart
pounding.  He couldn't live a lifetime without Mulder, a year was bad enough.  

Mulder looked at Alex and grabbed the man's hands.  ' Am I an evil person? Why
do I end up hurting her so much?' Mulder said and began to cry.

'Shhhhhhhhhhh' Alex grabbed Mulder and held his sobbing body close.

Alex wiped the tears and kissed the man's face.  'You are not evil.  This isn't
your fault.' 

Mulder looked at Alex and leaned across until he was kissing the man.  Mulder
kissed Alex, their tongues wrestling in their mouths.  

Alex could feel Mulder's cock coming to life near his hip.  He grabbed Mulder's
jeans clad ass and pushed the man against him.  Mulder moaned and pushed Alex
away from him.  He started to take his clothes off rapidly.  

'Hurry Alex, I need you. Please hurry.' Mulder said.  He flung his clothes off
all over the hotel suite.

Alex began to strip also. He watched Mulder come undone.  He grabbed the naked
man and kissed him hard until their lips were swollen.  

Alex grabbed Mulder's hand and brought him to the large bed in the room.  They
flung the expensive comforter off the bed and got on top of the sheets.  

Alex kissed Mulder's entire body, savoring the man's beauty.  Alex licked
Mulder's hard cock from balls to tip.  He sucked the tip of the cut penis, and
savored the pre-cum that was seeping out of the pee hole.  

Mulder arched his back and clutched the bed sheets as Alex sucked his cock.  
He moaned and yelled into the silence of the room.  

'Oh god Alex please, suck my cock.  That is it, suck it there, harder
harder...Alex please yes..Oh my god that is so good.' Mulder's words were quick
and he humped Alex's mouth.  

Suddenly Alex stopped sucking Mulder's cock and flung the man to his stomach. 
Before Mulder could comment, he felt Alex's tongue on his asshole.  

The sensation was incredible and not one he had ever experienced. Not even with
Billy.

Alex licked and ate Mulder's asshole like an expert.  He kissed it and allowed
his tongue to go deep inside the ex-FBI agent's bum hole.  He could smell soap
and the rising smell of sex on the man.  

Mulder was whimpering at the sexual overload he was feeling.  He grabbed his
cock and began to jerk it off.  Alex's tongue fucked the small dark hole and
eventually made Mulder groan and spray his jism all over the bed.  

Alex grabbed Mulder's cum covered hand and licked the semen off it.  

'That is only the beginning Mulder. You want it all?' Alex asked.

'Yes.' He said.

'Get on your back and grab your knees.  Spread that ass for me baby.' Alex said
huskily, he walked over to the nightstand and grabbed the lube.

He watched Mulder do as he said, and how the man held his legs open.  Alex
grabbed his cock and prayed he could control himself. Mulder was cherry but
ready for it.  He wanted to feel every moment; he wanted it to last.  

Mulder watched Alex return to the bed and his eyes were glued to the large
erection on his lover.  Mulder could feel his breathing quicken and his asshole
clench at the thought of being invaded by such a large penis.

'Tell me Mulder, is this for me?' Alex said, as he tenderly passed his index
finger across the small, virgin hole the man was exposing.

Mulder nodded and took a deep breath.

'No baby, say it.  Talk for me, let me hear your voice.' Alex said.

'Now let me ask you again.  Is this manpussy your offering for me? You want me
to fuck that pretty, little asshole Fox?' Alex asked, he used words he was sure
Mulder never heard from previous lovers or his wife.

'Yes Alex, I want you to fuck me.  I want you to fuck my ass.  Here, take it. 
Fuck me into the next Millenium' Fox said, and pushed his legs farther apart.  

Alex got in between Fox's legs and put the condom on his cock.  He slicked the
latex covered condom with a generous amount of lube.  He then applied some lube
to his finger and began to lube up Mulder's anus.  The dark pink hole tightens
whenever Alex's finger penetrated it and Alex's other hand patted Mulder's leg.

'Easy, Fox, gotta learn to relax.  I don't want to hurt that pretty asshole, but
you're so tight.  When I put my cock against your asshole, I want you to push
out like if your going to take a shit, it will open your hole up a bit.  Then I
am going to slide inside, nice and easy, you going to maybe start feeling like
you need to take a shit, don't worry about it.  That feeling will pass
eventually, and we won't worry about any messes today.  You ok?' Alex said.

'Yes, please let's do this.' Mulder said.

He saw Alex's cock begin to push against his asshole and Mulder began to bear
down as if he was on the toilet.  He could feel his asshole open a bit and Alex
ease inside his cock head.  

'Ahhhhhhhhhhhh ' Mulder screamed, feeling as if his body was going to rip open.

'Shhhhhhh easy Fox, easy, I am inside. Don't worry, I won't move yet.' Alex
said.  He felt the sweat starting to pour over his body.  He wanted to ram
inside the cherry tight asshole; it had such a grip on his cock he wasn't sure
he could hold back his cum.

'Oh god just feels so big.  Hurts a bit thought, Alex.  Oh god Alex.' Mulder
said and bit his bottom lip.  

Alex leaned into Mulder and kissed him.  He then began to kiss and suck on
Mulder's neck.  Mulder moaned and ran his hands over Alex's male muscular body. 
How different it was from Scully's, and why did this body feel right on top of
me? 

Alex's mouth and body eventually made Mulder forget the pain from the anal
penetration.  Before he could react, Alex had eased a bit further inside
Mulder's body.  Mulder sensed a burning sensation at first but then a feeling of
fullness he couldn't avoid inside his ass.  

'I love you Fox, I love you.' Alex said, as his cock hit bottom.  He was up to
his balls inside Mulder's body.  He felt the vice grip hold the virgin ass had
on his hard on.  

'Alex, oh god, your inside me. ' Mulder looked into Alex's eyes.  

'Mulder, from the moment I met you I wanted you. I knew you were a bit confused
but I was willing to wait for this moment.  You ready Fox? You want it all now?'
Alex said and gripped the man's slender hips.

Mulder nodded and watched Alex lean back.  Mulder watched Alex start to fuck
him, the deep and slow in and out motion of his cock.  Mulder wept and lost
himself in the sensation and in the eventual moment, his life has brought him
to.  

Alex and Mulder spent the next few hours making love.  Sometimes the lovemaking
was gentle and Mulder cried in Alex's arms.  Other times, it was hard and Mulder
was behind Alex's body, ramming his cock in and out.  He spanked the pale
upturned ass and bit the man's neck.  He let go of years of frustration and
fucked the other man with all his might.  

They ordered room service and therefore never left the hotel room.  A 'do not
disturb' sign made sure everyone stayed away from them.  

Alex watched Mulder dig into his poached salmon and decided it was time to talk.

'Mulder, the Gunmen have told you about the recent sightings?' Alex said.

'Yes, how do you know about it?' Mulder asked, he stopped eating.

'I told them to tell you. I have them working for me now.' Alex said.

'Oh? What is going on now Alex?' Mulder said.

'Mulder the Consortium was badly run but it did have some kind of purpose.  It
served to do those things that real government just couldn't get involved in
without scaring an entire nation.' Alex said.

Mulder watched Alex and took sip of his wine.

'Mulder, since the Smoker died and the rest of members, a new generation of
leaders have appeared.  We don't have the same ridiculous ambitions as they had. 
We want to find a way to protect this world from alien forces that threaten it
constantly.  Mulder we are not alone in his universe and you know that.  A man
like you can't just sit around, knit booties, and build a tree house.  No kid
you have will ever be safe until we make this world safe..' Alex said.

'Who runs this new Consortium?' Mulder asked.  

Alex leaned back on his chair and crossed his legs.  He looked at Mulder.

'You are the new Consortium boss? You are the boss of course, how stupid of me
not to have figured that out sooner. What do you want from me Alex?' Mulder
asked.

Alex got up and got on his knees near Mulder.  He grabbed Mulder's hand, 'Mulder
I need you.  I need your intelligence and your experience.  I want to do the
right thing for all of us.  Mulder things have not ended, we can't sit on our
laurels yet.  Come with me Mulder; come join the Gunmen and me in keeping this
world safe.  Not only that, I have made a deal with the FBI, as of 6 months ago
all X-Files will be my department.  I have opened an investigation office as the
'cover-up' for the group.  X-Files Investigations Inc. will be a completely
legit business and our computer system will be connected to the FBI's central
system.  I need you for all this Mulder.  You should see the stack of files that
are new to the X-Files department.  One of them is a disappearance of some
children near Roswell.  Mulder, I want you not only cause of all this.  I want
you in my life, I love you.' Alex said and stood up.  He headed towards the
room's bathroom and Mulder heard the shower going.
****************************
April 9th, 2001

Scully sat in the living room of her apartment.  It was 8pm and of course,
Mulder wasn't home.  Scully knew Mulder wasn't coming back.  

She looked at her wedding band and smiled.  She had been foolish thinking she
could change Mulder.  That anyone but Mulder could change Mulder.  She wonders
if he would forgive her for that. 

They were both so desperate and needy, too many years being together.  Scully
mistook her own fears of suddenly being alone without Mulder as love for Mulder.
The kind of love that would make a marriage work.  She wasn't going to cry,
cause there was nothing to cry about.  She felt a sense of peace suddenly with
him gone.  She had been suffocating and was about to make the typical mistake of
adding a baby to the equation. She instead began to arrange to adopt a baby that
was abandoned at the clinic.  Abandoned like she had been by her husband.  

Scully sighed and held the crumpled note in her hand.  She could hear the music
playing in the background.  She was playing her favorite Sarah McLachlan CD, and
this song hit home:

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smiling in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standing on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

She found the note in her husband's tuxedo on their wedding night.  With
Skinner's help the handwriting had been identified as Alex Krycek.  She made
Skinner swear against ever saying a word about it and she waited a year to see
what choice her husband would make.  

Last night when Mulder lied about his meeting today, Scully knew Mulder wasn't
coming back.  Mulder was trying to fight against something she now could see
wasn't his fault.  She had found the videotape and the numerous gay porn
magazines.  Nevertheless, then one day they were gone and Scully never knew what
to think about it.  Their sex life never improved and began to trickle.  What
sex occurred was always initiated by her except for that one night when Mulder
fucked her so hard, she felt like crying.  She wasn't sure if he was punishing
her or himself.  

Scully looked at their wedding album on the cocktail table in the living room.  
Suddenly the telephone rang, ' hello'? 

'Hi, Dana, this is mom, how are you honey?' Mrs. Scully said.

'Mom, can you come over? I need to speak to you, it's very important.' Scully
said.  
********************************
April 11th, 2001: Consortium offices

Alex sat at the end of the long mahogany table.  He watched the faces of the men
and women around them.  They were the new Consortium, hand-picked by him
personally.  They ranged from different backgrounds but all citizens of the
United States.  The Lone Gunmen sat near-by near the computers in the office.  

'Welcome everyone to our first meeting.  You all know each other.  I am here to
not only begin business but to introduce you to your other leader.   He and I
will share the leadership of this group.  We will fight against any foreign or
Alien danger our world or nation might encounter.  Ladies and gentlemen, Fox
Mulder.' Alex said and looked at the man directly ahead of him on the other end
of the table.  

Mulder smiled and winked at Alex. He was dressed impeccably in his dark Armani
signature suit.  The loaded Sig gun concealed in the holster under his suit
jacket.  Spooky Mulder was back with a vengeance.  

The new Consortium members all stood up and applauded loudly, they knew between
those two men, they were invisible.  

The end